But I figured I'd give it a go.
At the beginning of 2013 I was really excited. I thought this was going to finally be the year I turned things around and I felt like I was finally growing into exactly the kind of person I want to be, but in fact I'm a lot different now than what I was in January, and not in the way I expected. And now I realise that no year is the year "I'm going to grow into my personality" because people are always changing and I'm no exception.
Also, I had some new year's resolutions I set myself and I failed most of them and some I didn't fail. Most are too private for me to share but I'll share a couple:
I did not manage to stop clicking my fingers
I did however get my head down and finish high school without *too many* major incidents. Saying that there was some major drama but that's just life I suppose.
There were, however, many many different things I wanted to accomplish by the end of 2013 that I haven't even thought about since January, and other things that I have thought about but haven't really gone the way I'd hoped.
So I've decided that in 2014 I will not set myself any resolutions. I will not set unrealistic goals, some of which are the same every year, for myself, and I will not reach December feeling as if I have failed myself in the year. I will let my life take its course and I won't get caught up in the things that don't matter and I'll allow myself some more time to just do stuff rather than sit down specifically thinking about the list of unrealistic things I have to do.
But I suppose I can't help but feel, or hope, that maybe this year might just be my year. It's futile to hope though.
So to conclude this year I'm going to try hard to think about the positive things, the things that mattered, rather than the negatives. I don't believe in forgetting all the bad things though, because we need them to grow as people.
So here's my summary of the year:
Good things:
- Went to India after 4 years
- Met Tasha (on the internet but whatever)
- Nikola
- Saw All Time Low live
- Saw Mallory Knox live
- Met Sam and Dave from Mallory Knox
- Left high school once and for all
- Went to America/Canada
- Completed a very specific new year's resolution that was the hardest thing I've ever done and is still going on and this is very vague but it's a really really important part of this year
- And The Mountains Echoed by Khaled Hosseini
- GCSE's
- Fall Out Boy came back
- Iron Man 3
- Thor: The Dark World
- The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug
- Catching Fire
And of course there were some negatives:
- My chemical romance break up
- I start college
- College
- College
- People at college
- Social situations at college
- College subjects are hard
- (Nikola)
- A certain failed (again I know it's vague but still) new year's resolution that changed my life
So, 2013 wasn't great but it wasn't too bad. There are certain things that I would do a thousand times over and certain things I wish never ever happen again to me or to anyone.
I know the holidays can be a difficult time but I hope everyone has a good one anyway. And if 2013 wasn't the best year, then stick around because one of the coming years have to be better.
I don't care how cheesy that sounds, it's true. One of these years is going to be brilliant. Who knows, it may even be 2014?
Happy holidays everyone.
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