I feel like I should really make a post about my birthday

I don't know why, but it just feels like if you have a blog and don't post about your birthday experiences.... it's a bit wrong?
I don't know really, I guess I just really want to use this opportunity to express how much I love my friends, and one in particular: Nikola
I met Nikola online and I can't remember the first time we spoke, but it was single-handedly the best decision I've ever made. She lives in Germany but still sent me over a birthday card, which looks a little like this:

Isn't it cute?
Anyway, it wasn't really the card, but more the letter she wrote me that brought a tear to my eye. I couldn't tell you why because I don't really know myself, but I figured out that I really loved this girl, and that she was beyond amazing, and that I'm lucky to know her. She goes through things in her life, we all do, but she's gone through some pretty bad things, and there have been moments when I've been scared beyond compare that I've lost her, and the relief I went through when I figured out I hadn't was second to none. I guess another thing that struck me was that she took time out of her day to buy me this stuff and send it all the way from Germany, and the fact that she takes time out of her day to talk to me so much as well. I'm glad to have her in my life, and I hope everyone has a friend like her, because everyone deserves and needs one.
I have other friends too, not to leave them out, and one friend I need to mention is my Internet soul mate.... I may or may not be hers, but she is definitely mine! Tasha. A million years wouldn't be enough to describe this girl, but I would just like to say that recently she did something so amazing and inspiring that no matter what the consequence, I'm so proud of her for going though with it.
I realise I'm being vague, but these aren't my stories to tell.

Anyway, I guess the main point of all of this is that I went through a phase in my life, a very long phase, where I didn't really have any close friends. I made a couple of friends, but then either I'd end up pushing them away with my anxiety/awkwardness or they would get bored of me. It always happens. I currently have a couple of school friends who I've really only been friends with for a year and this is usually the amount of time when my relationships start to fall apart... so I'm dreading this part really. I have one school friend I've been friends with pretty much since the beginning of high school, for four years, and that is genuinely the longest friendship I've ever had with anyone!
Since I barely have any social skills and lack the ability to make friends, I honestly thought that I would never find anyone that I could open up to, have serious conversations with, who could be there for me and I could be there for them, but we could still have the stupidest conversations and laugh for hours at end. You can imagine my surprise when I met my two best friends who know pretty much everything there is to know about me, but are still by some weird miracle my friends and I can have a crazy laugh with both of them and I'd definitely like to think that I'm there for them and I try my hardest to be 100% of the time, I hope they know that.

I guess this is a really cheesy post, but what can I say.... I like cheese....
(No I'm sorry for that 'joke' it was so bad... doesn't even deserve to be called a joke *sigh* what is my life?)
My stupid jokes aside... I guess what I'm really trying to say is that despite everything we all deserve an amazing friend, and I'm just really lucky to have two.

Peace out
The Ham Master has spoken