Those are the stats for my exams this year... 1 down, 12 left.
So I recently had my first exam of the year (urgghhh Maths!) and I only have 12 left!!! *sarcasm* that's a lot of exams. And all I'm waiting for is the day when I can go "only one exam left" and then soon after I can be so excited by the prospect of no more exams, an exciting summer ahead of me, and yes... NO MORE HIGH SCHOOL!
Some people may be a little bit sad to leave, and good for them, high school obviously treated them well, but not me. Since the first couple of weeks of high school I have been literally counting down till I get to leave, maybe not always the days but by Christmas of Year 8 I was thinking that 1/12th of my Davison life had gone and I only had to that 11 more times, not too hard, right? Wrong.
It was horrendous. It sucked and at the end of Year 8, it wasn't so much joy at the thought of summer I was feeling, but more joy at the thought that I had gone through a 1/4 of my high school experience. And by Year 9 I had made it through a half and at the end of Year 10 I only had one year left and by the time Year 11 started I had a countdown calendar going and now I can't really believe that it's only 45 days till my last exam, 49 till Prom then it's all over. Forever. Finally.
I couldn't begin to describe how much high school sucked.... Best four years of my life no fricking way.
I refuse to accept that this is it. Who knows, the rest of my life may be utter crap, and if so then I'm not looking forward to it because some real shit has to go down for these four years to have been as good as it gets! Okay, maybe for the chavs and high school 'popular' kids who only really got a kick out of school by intimidating others and making other people feel bad, maybe high school was as good as it gets for some of them.... but for people like me, the people who have been battered, bruised, kicked down and walked over for four years, this is not the end.
There is not one little thing I will miss about this hell hole of a school, not even the people. You know what my logic is, friends don't last forever, not at this age anyway. We all have to move away and on with our lives that's just the way the world works, and if we don't keep in contact, then we can't have been that close any way.
And besides... who am I kidding? I really only have like three or four friends. Tops.
I don't know if I really had a specific point, I kind of went off on one (happens a lot) but I think I was getting at what is the point in all of this? All we seem to do is countdown? Like right now, I'm counting down till my exams are over. Then I'll start college and count down till that's over. Then the same for university. Then I'll get a job, and I sincerely hope I'll enjoy it, but let's face it... not as much as I'll enjoy being back at home in the comfort of my own bed, so I'll be counting down then as well! So what are we really counting down to? Because to me, it seems endless!
That being said, I will carry on counting down till the end of my exams, and I will love every second of the countdown because it's just one day closer to the end of high school.
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